Today was supposed to be a very different day.
Most of you know that we had no intentions of starting a family for quite a few years.
But God's plans were very different than ours.
On June 30, we got some shocking news. Life changing news. Only, at the time we had no clue how much it would change our lives.
2 lines. 1 word. Pregnant. What?! 2 trips to the store. Multiple retests and alot of tears later the joy set it. We were going to be parents. Our best friends and immediate family were the only ones to know. Today was the day we would share it with the world.
We went for our second visit at almost 10 weeks, and we heard the words that no parents-to-be want to hear.
"I am so sorry...Let me go get the Doctor..."
I won't go into all of the details of all of that day....but I will tell you one thing. That day and in the weeks following, my husband was a rock. I am still not sure how I functioned, but my husband was right there beside me every step of the way. I could not have asked for a better partner to walk through this with.
Now that we are on the other side of everything that had to be waited for and gone through, we are sorting through the emotional mess that is left. It is hard to talk about. How do you walk up to someone and say "Hey this happened to me". But I know that it is an important part of healing. It is now a part of our story, of our testimony. My prayer is that God will use our pain, use this trial to touch the lives of others as they go through the same.
Through this journey, our lives have changed. Not in the way that we thought that they would, but once again-God's plans are always so much bigger and better than ours. I am so grateful that He does not let my selfishness or stubbornness get in the way of His ways.
I am deeply sorry to hear that, Allison. Lots of love, hugs, rest, and good thoughts sent your way. When in the valley, I always look forward to the next mountaintop.....
ReplyDeleteI wish Today would of had a different out come. Wishing & knowing the God that is in control of all is 2 totally different things though isn't it. Remember he wastes nothing. You and Mark are in our prayers. We love you both!
ReplyDeleteI agree with Julie...He wastes nothing. I am praying that He will quite you with His love and that you will know that He is with and that He will not let the waters sweep over you. The song "Glory Baby" really helped me a lot...heaven's lullabies must be so sweet! Love you guys!
ReplyDeleteSo sorry for your loss. Call me if you want an ear for listening. I'll be praying for you both.
ReplyDeleteBoth of you are on our hearts and in our prayers!
ReplyDeleteGood Morning Allison, Hope this finds you feeling better, I am so sorry for your's and Marks loss! but I know God has you both in the Palm Of His Hand! OMG! He has you so secure that it is hard to fanthom! but be rest assured that the plan he has for you is going to be awesome! He is already there waiting for you two to shine! Allison I am really going to miss you! But I know that we have to move on to new heights, and this is just a part of God's Plan in our lives to make us more like Him! I Love you; and know that He Will Provide just what You need! Always Praying:).
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